I am an overthinker. My brain never stops thinking about every single thing. The past, the future. I make 1000 scenarios in my head about one situation. I am always prepared for the worst, just in case. While I’m all those things, I am also impulsive. I could worry about something for months and then I would have a crazy idea and the next thing I know, it’s happening. Because I can feel it’s right. Or maybe not, but too late, it’s happening. Here’s a list of a few impulsive ideas I had which actually turned out being the best decisions I made in my life.
Moving abroad helped me in so many ways. I became a more independent, confident and happy woman. Since I started travelling, I grew so much. I remember arriving in Oxford, UK and being petrified when I had to actually speak English. I was ashamed of my level and was afraid that people wouldn’t understand me or would make fun of me. I prefered remain silent than having to speak to someone. And here I am now, writing a blog in English and having job interviews in Shakespeare language, crazy huh? Becoming bilingual was actually why I moved abroad in the first place; I wrote a whole blog post about it so I’m not gonna repeat myself haha.
Also I find myself way more open-minded than I was before. I am considering to do things I would have never thought of before. I am experiencing new things, meeting people from all over the world, travelling to countries I’ve never been to. But the most important, I am enjoying life, more than ever.
Being an aupair
Being an aupair was my first job ever. It made me grow so much because of all of the things I said just on top. But the biggest thing that this job actually gave me was confidence. When I started, I was full of doubts and thought that everything I was doing was wrong or not good enough. I remember the first few days being so worried, I was already asking myself “what am I going to do if they fire me?”. Luckily for me, the family I worked for was the nicest ever. They were so grateful of my work and were not hesitating to say it. Always a “thank you”, a few encouraging words but especially loads of love.
Being an aupair made me a more responsible woman as well. You have to make sure the kids eat on time, do their homeworks, arrive on time at school, don’t forget their stuff, tidy their room, etc. And the most important : make sure the kids are safe, always. It sure made me more aware of every danger that could happen to them. I remember when I was a kid and my father used to say to my siblings and I “walk in front of me”, I didn’t understand it. I was thinking “what’s the difference?”, “why can’t I walk behind him?”, “nothing’s gonna happen to me if I walk behind him, this is ridiculous”. And here I was, years later saying to the girls I look after : “walk in front of me, otherwise I can’t see you”. The truth is when you look after children, you want to have eyes on them all the time, especially when you’re outside. You want to prevent any danger, make sure they’re safe. It certainly made me more responsible and I am so grateful for it because I want to be a responsible mother one day. And I can say with confidence that my aupair experience will help me achieving that.
I finished high school in June 2013 and had no idea about what I wanted to do next. I always said that I wanted to work with children but I didn’t know what exactly. I was confused. Like really confused. I wasn’t really bad at school but not really good either. And I was extremely lazy. I wasn’t the type of girl who would study for hours for a test. I would read once or twice then be bored and lazy so would do something else. I could see myself fail at university so it made the choice of what doing next really difficult. That’s when I did something quite stupid I think : I looked at my grades to see which one were “the best”. Apparently I was good in English and Spanish. Well, at least I wasn’t too bad. So I decided to start a license in foreign languages. When I was at the university, I had no idea why I was there or what job I could do afterwards if I got the diploma. The funny part was that, of course, the classes were in English and Spanish. I understood half of the english classes but for the spanish ones, I was drowning. I couldn’t understand a thing. I felt like a fraud. What the f*ck was I doing there? I stayed 2 months before telling my parents I wanted to study something else. My dad asked me “What do you want to do then? What do you want to study?” and I still didn’t know. My stepmum reminded me that I always said that I wanted to work with children and it was true. “I want to become a preschool teacher”. I looked for schools online and the next week, I started in my new school. 3 years later, I graduated with a mention. Even though I am not a preschool teacher at the moment, my degree offered me so much opportunities already. I gained loads of experience with children during those 3 years and I wouldn’t be where I am now if I hadn’t change studies.
Buying a new laptop
Saying like that, it can sound really materialistic. In my opinion, it’s not. I received my first laptop for my 18th birthday, I was so happy with it but unfortunately 4 years later, it broke. I then had another one but after only a few months, it started being really slow and froze every 10 minutes. It is actually one of the reason I didn’t start my blog earlier. I just stopped using it during almost 2 years as it had became useless.
Just before I moved to Switzerland, I was thinking more and more about starting a blog and eventually, I bought a laptop. That evening, I started my blog.
Starting my blog
I think that the moment I really wanted to start my blog is when I arrived in UK, back in August 2016. I wanted to share my aupair experience, like a diary and talk about other subjects as well. I didn’t do it for many reasons. I explained one of them just before.
So 2 months ago, when I finally started it, I was so excited but also nervous to share it. I am so happy to have done it though. I found myself a new hobby. I feel so peaceful when I write a new blogpost. Nothing can disturb me. It is just me, my thoughts and my laptop. I am so focused and it is what I needed. Being focused on something instead of scrolling through social media because I can’t sleep. Which, by the way, doesn’t help at all.
Also, the fact that I don’t force myself doing it, I don’t set any blogging goals or any regular day to post. I am trying not to put any pressure on me, on my blog. Because I know that if I start doing that, all the pleasure than blogging gives me will go away.
I wasn’t myself such a blog reader before but because of the beautiful blogging community on Twitter, I discovered some great blogs and bloggers. I spend a lot of my free time reading blog posts now. Global Mimi is one of my favourite blogger at the moment. She is from UK, currently living in Mexico and travels a lot. I love the way she writes and her posts really inspire me. She also got a youtube channel.
Living in Switzerland
I had just returned home after spending 2 months in Greece working as a kid’s rep (I’ll make a post about it at some point) and I needed a job before my next summer season starting in April/May 2019. I needed a job but I wanted to travel. The perfect option for me was to be an aupair again. I decided to do it in Switzerland because 1) I had never been there before and 2) spending winter in Switzerland… I mean, where else?
I found my hostfamily in only a few days and a week after, I moved there. I was a bit worried to be aupair in another family as I stayed 2 years with my previous hostfamily and it had been so great, I was scared of being disappointed. Luckily for me, once again, it was a great match. The family is very different from my previous one but they’re all absolutely lovely and welcomed me as the 5th member of their family straight away.
I am so happy to live in country which is an absolute beauty. I don’t even have to go far to have a great view. Here’s the one I get from the garden :
I haven’t stopped exploring in my free time since I arrived here. I’ll share everything I’ve done so far in Switzerland in my next post.
Don’t get me wrong, those are the best decisions I made in my life but of course I made some really bad decisions as well but I thought we would stay positive in this post haha.
What are the best decision(s) you made in your life? Tell me everything in the comments section down below!
“Your life changes the moment you make a new, congruent, and committed decision.”
With love, Anaïs